the sad sad life of mimi.
so be ready.
coz itz gonna be f*ckin' jiwang.
*hahakzZZZ!!!!!
alone
its been 3 days.and still u havent given me even a simple hello.i felt like msging u but something seems to hold me back.that only
GOD noes why.u were going to be my future wife.i did everything to make that a reality.i worked extra hard,not only for me,its for us...
our future. maybe i was just asking for the sky.i hoped for too much.maybe this is a sign from
GOD telling me that im not ready,its not time yet.u still want to enjoy ur life and have fun. maybe i was selfish.watever it is i just hope for the best.
these few days have been weird for me.sitting here wit my labby @ Starbucks
(i dont even noe wat this place is called) its opposite esplanade, near the old clifford peir, the place we used to hang out,i've decided to blog.with a cup of coffee,ciggies and music in my ears im gonna express myself thru wat have happen it the last few days.
to be frank i've been drinking everynite to ease my stress and problems, trying to aswer all the question i asked u to myself.this also helps me to have a good nite uninterrupted sleep.i feel so
frustrated,
angry, lonely and
dissapointed. but who cares about how i feel. i dont have that effect to anyone.so i just be carefree and enjoy my stressfull days thru alcohol. u would be angry but what the hell,if u dont even consider my feelings why should i.
why so sudden?without warning. U are so
unpredictable. but i still dont nderstand why. why cant u be direct and not leave me hangging alone. if u dont love me just tell me. i wont get angry.if there is someone else that guy just tell me,i wont get mad coz i lost.im a MAN i can take it so tell me why.
i miss u so.without u,coz msging,talking to u,meeting u have been a dailly routine,just like eating,drinking,going to werk. take one of that out i lost without a trace...
u were going to be my future wife but i have lost half my trust and hope for u.
so please tell me if i dont love me
cos i still love u
Mss Nur Shafawati
haiz...
*mimi
Tuesday, January 22, 2008 // 6:05 PM